late to the beginning
early to the end nobody is here yet getting away by the narrowest of margins because i don't allow myself space i don't know a life with the freedom of having extra time extra room to fill extra provisions for later all at once or not at all i am writing as i sit in the station after missing my first train by some five minutes that could have been prevented with better planning i am writing as my laptop goes down from 35% after forgetting my charger which could have easily been brought if i would have thought for a second 9 assignments due by 9 and i haven't started one because i cannot start until the end i will be late for work but they won't be surprised getting away until i cannot get past it setting myself up to let them all down they don't understand the cycle, and neither do i
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move me, shake me
but don't tell me what to do touch me, break me so i can put the blame on you filling space with something i didn't need i have nothing to do with it look down at my hands like it wasn't me but it's encrypted on my fingertips i need a new place a different view but what is that supposed to do? i cannot run any place where my shadow won't follow frequency reduces magic spinning me into a cynical knots it's not as fun when i actually have it addicted to an empty slot pop open a compartment of my pink container
what becomes of me of my body less 50 milligrams? what is my authority if the container goes missing? i am shrouded by a blurry screen but the screams are not as loud i have created something sound proof built myself a cage i am the only keyholder so please don't get in the way did i take all five today are they overtaking me? am i abandoning my agency for some semblance of security? |
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